So, this is Christmas

I should have known better. I should have known better. What I did to is follow the directions, per our agreement, to a "T". What I did NOT do, is listen to my inner voice. As much as it may be all about the kids, it is still understood, that we still MUST exchange something. If only something small, still something. For the second year in a row,  I have made this mistake. Will I ever grasp the concept of this?

A Post From Kobe Bryant

My family philanthropy supports a local organization who is fighting homelessness called My Friends Place. I first went there a year ago to begin my journey. Last night, to better understand the issue, I spent a night learning more about 

homelessness at the LA Mission from those who have been affected first hand.

The number one message I carry from them is that of love, compassion and faith. With "great power comes great responsibility". We all have the POWER to affect change in the lives of others. To live life with our heads under water afraid to see the swells crashing above us, is not LIVING. Living is inspiring others to live. Living is helping others find their way. Living is spotlighting those who have been sleeping in dark corners for so long that society has become blind to their invisibility.

LA MISSION IS LIVING!!

Thank you LA Mission for Welcoming me into your home. I learned a ton and am looking forward to learning more and helping you in the fight to end homelessness.

Fans, you can join me in learning and fighting for others too:http://kvbff.org/.

God Bless
Mamba out..

Lupe Fiasco: Food and Liquor II

Bitch Bad

Rumble, young man, rumble.

I'm tired. Simple is that, tired. I put up with a lack luster job that was a means to an end.  Something to keep me occupied and not gallivanting around the city. It became a slice of entertainment for me. A hustle. There were the perks. Networking and enterpernuring endeavors as well. Business was GOOD to say the least.  Then, it changed.  I am living proof that one night can change everything. I blame you. FUCK YOU JAMES HUNTER!  I had to blame someone, I guess.

Can't a young ni**@ get money anymore?

It seems as if it was so much easier than is is today to establish ones self. My theory of this is all in the grooming. If you start your own business, you would be in a better position to teach others how to own a business. Parents are the biggest factor in whether this matriculates to their children. If your child sees you struggle from working a job that you do not love to pay the bills, I believe that they will grow up to have this same kind of attitude. Settling for less in order to SURVIVE.  What we fail to let them know is that surviving is not living. It often feels easier for me to get frustrated with my working situation to the point it seems to have no end.  By not seeing the end, this gives a complex of "Fuck it" or "By any means necessary" attitude. My children pick up on that. I do not want them to go on living their youths seeing this.  I have seen such, and it does have a direct effect on my decision making as an adult.  The challenge is to go outside of what we believed is true about being successful. One truth is that no one has ever become wealthy by working for someone else. Another truth is that fear is the main reason people do not acheive their dreams and goals. I have seen many people rely too heavily on faith in a higher being and not enough faith in ones self and abilities. If we were all created in the likeness of the Creator, who are we to short change our abilities as individuals? The most major nuance that I feel needs to be changed is finger pointing and blaming others for our own lack of self motivation.  It goes hand-in-hand with us being afraid of failure. It is no ones task but your own to make a change.  Hurdles don't stop you from completing the race, they only slow you down. This may not at all be a bad thing either.  That experience that you receive can help you in future situations as far as decision making is concered.  There is nothing wrong with working a job in bewteen as long as you are working TORWARD something.  The goal is to always remember what is important, what is at stake and to always keep your eyes on the prize.
-fin

Doctors don't know shit!

I don't know how every doctor I have taken my son to, has the audacity to rush the help process and has yet to come up with a definite answer as to what the hell is wrong.  Diagnosing him wrong is pissing me off.  HE has has this persistent rash for like tow months now and it has become ever so problematic.  My job suck at understanding what the hell I'm going through, but are they really supposed to care?  I would appreciate if the service my son receives is of a quality and personable nature so I can feel as if they actually give a fuck instead of rushing through every trip we take.  Is there no one whom actually cared enough in healthcare to see that my young son is better.  Instead, all I hear is "oh, it's____ and it should go away in a few weeks.  Call us back or come back to the ER if it doesn't go away."  WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT!!!  Is it the type of insurance he has that make you frown down on putting in all your effort into taking care of my child???I really want to know what the hell the situation is so I  can hold someone accountable.  I'm so tired of being given bullshit that makes no sense of all.  Make me want to be John Q.